Move on..

Move on ? Yaa, i already did that . Not because of you and also not because him . It is all because me, myself . I wanted to be that girl . I wanted to be free as much as I can . I want to have a life without you . Frankly, I dont want to care about you anymore . Sorry for the harsh words but I dont give a damn about that . You can , I can but why now ? I did it straight away after I left you . Well anyway, thank you for that . Wish for your happiness with your loves one . :) chill dude .  

Sigh~

Uhhh , da lama ta tulis blog . Haha . Nie pown mencuri masa sekejap . Rasanya ta lambat lagi nak wish Happy New Year and Happy Chinese New Year . So Gong xi gong xi . Unfortunately , this year ta berape nak happy because of assignment yang bergunung ganang banyaknya . I think this semester is going to kill me with those assignment . But kena siapkan jugakk . Kalau ta markah ta payah la kan . Senang cerita . Yahh , im lazy but i think the most lazy person is my friends . Haha . (Syhhh , keep it secret) . To compared between me and her , im quite okay dude . Haha . Im tired , really tired . Yaa laa , all of the assignment aku yang buat . Nak harapkan group ? Uhh , memang terkubur laa jawabnya . Jangan kata nak buat, nak sentuh pown belum tentu lagi taww . I don't mind , but at least share your opinion . Jangan harapkan aku sorang . Markah nak, buat ta nak . Lolx . Naik kematu burit aku menghadap lappy nie lelama . Nasib laa kau nie penyabar orangnya , kalau ta dengan kau kau sekali aku masukkan dalam presentation nie kang . Kbai . 

Truthfully , im tired .

Who knows . The more I try , the less its working . I try to avoid but yet the things keep going on happen . There's always a mistakes that I have made . Whats wrong with me ? Whats wrong with myself ? Dont I good enough to cherish your day ? I try my best & give the best but people keep going on find my mistake . What i have done ? Eventhough , your attitude break me to pieces , I forgive you . I dont even hate you my dear friend . Because its hard for me to find a friend or to be friendly but once I get . I really take a good care of it . Never cross in my mind to let it go easily or to make you as my enemy . Please , at least understand me . How many times I need to tell you . To be frank , I dont really mind actually but I dont want to ruin everything simply like that . Dont you take it seriously ? What ever it is you're still my friend . Dont you try to avoid the thing that you go through everyday . For me , its okay if you want to respect my relationship with him . But , why so sudden ? Slowly , you're running from us . I know whats wrong with you actually but I dont want to tell you the thing that will make others knw too . Its just between you & me . How you define your friendship ? I trust you . Dont simply break that trust because once you break , you'll feel useless when you try to gain it back . I dont even care what others talk about you . Because the thing is between them & you . Not you & me . I do appreciate my friendship but its just wasting my time because you doesnt show your appreciation at all . Its too expensive to tell the world how damn much you're really care about your friend . You might not see , the inner me , once you see dont you dare to ask why because there's no use to tell you . You'll regret it someday somehow because when I was there for you , you closed your eyes but when you open your eyes , I already disppear & I know that I doesnt important to you at all . So better , I walk away rather than think that you does not care about me . Sorry to says it out , but truthfully im tired already . Tired with all the poker face that appear on your face , tired with your fake attitude , tired to try to win your heart , tired to tell the world alone how wonderful is my friendship matter . 

Morningmare !

I should pronoun it as nightmare actually . But aku mimpi pagi so I pronoun it as morningmare . Not that bad actually but the most i scared is that . A lot of things happened to me for these few days . But all in all , i'm still here . Breathing like usual , talking like the normal Suzy , smiling and laughing to make my love one and friends happy with me , even though i'm hurting deep inside . I dont really mind at all for what i saw and for what they do behind me . Dont mind doesn't mean that u dont care at all . Its just sooner or later u will realize it . Without me by your side , u'll think further away .  I'll always here and there for u . I'll not mad for that kind of matter . Pengalaman mematangkan aku . I regret that i make u felt upset . I regret that i'm the one that always cried for one reason . I dont want to . But i just want to let u knw . Your pride , your dignity is my priority . I'm sorry for all the mistakes i have been to u . I dont want people talk bad about u because i knw who u're . They dont even knw our story . I knw she's your bestfriend , u knw her first rather than me , she knw evrything about u . But at least , she should show some respect dude ! What if i do the same ?? I love my friendship , even the things they do is hurting me , i will never talk about that infront of them . Let the flow go away . Like i have been said on my previous post " to forget something easily is a gift from God" . Yeahh , i knw that . U look at me that time , but still u ignore it and u just carry on with him . What kind of friend is that ?? I'm not mad . I swear , i dont even hate u . Because evryone that related to me is precious . Do respect me like how i respect u . Dont try to challenge me Because im not a fighter . I'm not scared , just i dont want to ruin evrything that i have been thru together . Thanx . 

This and that :)

Haaa . Nie biase laa . Klo creativity tuh melimpah ruah sgt kan ,
nie laa jadinye . Dedicated to someone that I love the most ,
especially Banister laa . :)

Haaa . Yang nie plakk , aku tade kerja conteng kaki Ben . Time nie kat library ,
We face each other , then bawah meja aku minta kaki dia . Dia pown buka kasut , sock sume  .
Then , taadaaa ! Nie la hasilnye . :)

Yang nie tangan aku ehh . Haha . This time dorg plak conteng aku .
Maksud aku dorg Ben, yink & others laa . Banyak lagi . But aku upload suku jelaa.
Shantekk kann ? I like . 

Yang atas tuh my hand writing , yang bawah nie Banister punye.
But bak kata mereka almost sama kami punya handwriting . Haha
Entah laa . Question mark disitu ?????????

KLIA :)

Dia teringat , then suddenly aku pown jadi teringat juga laa . Then , aku pown teringat la untuk tulis blog aku pasal tuh . Haha . Klia ehh ?? Ta pernah pernah aku hantar orang pergi klia , jemput orang pernah . Then hantar plak si Banister nie kat Klia that day 23/12/2011 , sedih je hati . Haha . Nasib ta banjir klia tuh . Ta plan pown nak hantar dia sampai klia , plan smpi kL sentral je . But then suddenly je dia beli 2 ticket klia ekspress . Agak terkejut jugakk laa . Surprise that I never expect . Thank you sayang . Lastly aku senyum jugakk , at least aku orang terakhir yang tengok dia , tengok dia senyum that big . Im glad . Actually agak berat hati , biasa laa . Nak tengok someone yang kite sayang pergi , walaupun dalam jangka masa yang agak pendek je sebenarnya . Nak tengok kiteorang berpisah pergi jalan yang lain lain . Bangun pukul 6.30 pagi . Siap siap , aku pown packing barang barang aku , but bukan nak ikut dia balik sarawak laa . Aku pown plan lepas hantar dia , aku nak balik seremban . Kiteorang naik teksi pergi kL sentral , then from kL sentral pergi klia . Breakfast together kat kfc klia ,then dia masuk pintu perlepasan . Aku pergi escalator , nak pergi klia transit . Nasib naik air mata aku ta keluar . Haha . Cembeng la aku nie . Bukannya lama pown aku ta jumpa dia , around 11 hari je  . But , nak biasakan diri aku dengan environment yang tade dia , so rasa macam susah sikit . Kalau ta , everyday dia je yang kacau aku . Tengok muka sengal dia hari hari . Aku pergi mana mana pown dengan dia jugakk . Pergi makan , balik college sama , pergi kedai sama , tidur je ta sama . Haha . So a week macam tuh , dia tade , so pergerakan aku pown macam automatically terbatas . Dia tade , agak susah aku nak keluar makan , nak pergi mana mana pown aku jadi malas . So , terperap dalam bilik jela aku . Orang ajak keluar baru aku pergi , tuh pown agak susah jgakk . Haha . Bukan aku ta boleh adapt dlm condition yang macam tuh , but saje ngade laa . Then after that , dia pown da on board , aku pown pergi laa amik klia transit plakk . Sampai situ jela . Ta lama pown aku dengan dia . But till now aku belum jumpa dia lagi , sebab dia over amik cuti sendiri . Well, celebrate x'mas kan . Haha . Dia sorang je cuti seminggu , orang lain cuti sehari je . Btw , tape laa . Bukan selalukan . Peace yaww . :)

Nie haa ticket ehh . Nak buat surprise laa konon , but lastly kantoi jgakk .:)

Love you :)

Seriously , you're the best I ever had . Nothing much to say here guys . He came in my life , cherish my days , make me smiles , my friend , my best friend , my enemy , my adviser , my boyfriend . He is everything in my life . Besides him , of course is my mom . My mom still the winner in my heart . I'll never forget that . Whatever it is , we can still have a good conservation dear . Never fight for tiny mini problems . We solved it in our own way . Never put the blame on your shoulder alone . Together we share . Together we solve . Together we through the day . Together in easy and hard time . Meheartyousoodamnmuch ! Sorry for my behavior , my attitude . I try to change . I'll make an effort , so that you can see that I really take serious in this relationship . I'm nothing without you . Seriously , its empty without you to cherish my day , my moment . You're my hero , besides my father . I got you to watch over me through my day . Thank you dear for everything . Thank you for being with me , always by my side , accept with open heart and arms who exactly your girlfriend , never complaint , never tired . I love you .